इस् बार् जब् वो छोटी सी बच्ची मेरे पास् अपनी खरोन्च् ले कर् आयेगी
मैन् उसे फू फू कर् नहीं बेहलाऊन्गा
पनपने दुंगा उसकी टीस् को
इस बार नहीं
इस् बार् जब् मै चेहरोन् पर् दर्द् लिख देखून्गा
नही गाउन्गा गीत् पीडा भुला देने वाले
दर्द् को रीसने दून्गा,उटरने दून्गा अन्दर् गेहरे
इस बार नहीं
इस् बार् मै ना मरहम् लगाऊन्गा
ना ही उठाऊन्गा रुइ के फहेय्
और् ना ही कहूंगा कि तुम् आखें बंद् करलो,गर्दन् उधर् कर् लो
मै दवा लगाता हुं
देखने दुंगा सबको हम् सबको खुले नन्गे घाव्
इस बार नहीं
इस् बार् घावों को देखना है
गौर् से
थोडा लम्बे वक्त तक्
कुछ् फ़ैसले
और् उसके बाद् हौसले
कहीं तो शुरुवात् करनी ही होगी
इस् बार् यही तय् किया है !
-प्रसून जोशी
December 29, 2008
September 23, 2008
Ingawale (Shravan bal)
As per last post i will start off with my friendlist. Sorry guys to bit late but its better to be late than never... :D
Abhijit ...
We met for the first time during first year of engineering and barring one semester, have been virtually inseparable right through college and all the exams, especially the dreaded viva voce ones. He was my project partner and was perhaps my lucky mascot for the exams and some of my best project vivas have been with him sitting in the next chair.
He is intelligent, technically sound and used to get highest marks in college days among us.
A genuine person in the truest sense of the word, there is nothing put-on or artificial about him. He is comparatively less talkative, but genuinely good listener and true to his heart. Ready for anything to do, anywhere to go; at anytime. One more thing come to my mind when it comes to abhijit is his love for his GF; currently his better half. i will specifically like to quote here that he is intense lover. He loves movies; literally dies to watch movies. He likes to play cricket too.
This guy got married in June 2K7 and is expecting an addition to the family; early next year (came to know yesterday only :D). He has the honor (?) of being the first of the pack to put an end to his singleton status, even before any of the girls could do so.
All The Best, Buddy!!!
May 29, 2008
My soulmates
Hmm, it has been quite a long time ever since I visited blogland. I will start off with an ode to those individuals who made my wonder years... my friends!!! What follows in these pages will be sketches of these individuals as I have percieved them. In their own ways, these wonderful people have walked the walk of life along with me. So guys, here goes...
*The order of names in this page is NOT an indication of your importance (or lack of it) to me!!
*The order of names in this page is NOT an indication of your importance (or lack of it) to me!!
April 02, 2008
Death
When I was 17, I read a quote somewhere like “If you live each day as if it is last, someday you most certainly will right”
It made an impression on me and since then I look in the mirror every morning and ask myself if today will the last day of my life what I wanna do ...what I am about to do today. And whenever the answer is been “No” for too many days in a row, I know; I need to change something. Remembering that all be dead soon, helped me make the big choices in life.
Because almost everything, all external expectations, our pride, our fear of embarrassment and failure, these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die, is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to loose. You are already naked. There is no reason, not to follow your heart.
Death is a useful but purely an intellectual concept. No one wants to die. Even people, who wanna go to heaven, don’t wanna die. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one is ever escaped it and that is as it should be. Because death is, the very likely, the single best invention of life. It clears out the old to make the way for the new. Right now the new are we.
But some day not you want from now; you will gradually become old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic but its quit true. Your time is limited. So don’t waste it living someone else’s life.
Don’t be trapped by dormant which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions ground out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
In late 60’s there was a publication – Whole Earth, created by Stuart Brand. On the back cover of their final issue, there was a photograph of an early morning country road. The words below that photograph were “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”. The farewell message they signed off was “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”.
And I always wished that for myself – “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”.
It made an impression on me and since then I look in the mirror every morning and ask myself if today will the last day of my life what I wanna do ...what I am about to do today. And whenever the answer is been “No” for too many days in a row, I know; I need to change something. Remembering that all be dead soon, helped me make the big choices in life.
Because almost everything, all external expectations, our pride, our fear of embarrassment and failure, these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die, is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to loose. You are already naked. There is no reason, not to follow your heart.
Death is a useful but purely an intellectual concept. No one wants to die. Even people, who wanna go to heaven, don’t wanna die. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one is ever escaped it and that is as it should be. Because death is, the very likely, the single best invention of life. It clears out the old to make the way for the new. Right now the new are we.
But some day not you want from now; you will gradually become old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic but its quit true. Your time is limited. So don’t waste it living someone else’s life.
Don’t be trapped by dormant which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions ground out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
In late 60’s there was a publication – Whole Earth, created by Stuart Brand. On the back cover of their final issue, there was a photograph of an early morning country road. The words below that photograph were “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”. The farewell message they signed off was “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”.
And I always wished that for myself – “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”.
March 20, 2008
February 04, 2008
Moving ahead
moving ahead…mere two words and they define almost half of our life…don’t they? you fell in love with your high school friend…but she loved someone who was smarter than you... your friends say c'mon keep moving ahead. you start liking your school teacher and gosh she is married…same words come again. you start liking the gal next door…shez elder to you and already has a handsome bf…and again the same words…the friend whom you always envy scored better in board exams…shit how can that happen?? you worked harder than him. god is so unfair…then comes again keep moving ahead…but do we actually move ahead?? i don’t know. at times we do…at times we don’t. at times we don’t want to…at times we want to, but we cant… sounds funny ??
but i just feel why don’t we move ahead with some basic things on life?? why don’t we accept them?? your friend deserved someone smarter than you...that’s why she was with the guy she was. your school teacher just got too late...lolz. The gal next door just remains to be next door...and i bet your friend worked equally hard for his exams…but none of us would accept that...and if we do, we might get into this web of depression. you start feeling i’m not good enough...and somewhere i guess we all start feeling that way…
To be honest im someone who has lived with that kind of thing... rarely. dont know why?? because i never fell in love with gal next door…i always scored better than parents expected…and we didn’t have that much beautiful teachers… to had crush upon. therefore nowdays im in search of myself. this is about me. What about you people??
Think over it. Will continue later…
but i just feel why don’t we move ahead with some basic things on life?? why don’t we accept them?? your friend deserved someone smarter than you...that’s why she was with the guy she was. your school teacher just got too late...lolz. The gal next door just remains to be next door...and i bet your friend worked equally hard for his exams…but none of us would accept that...and if we do, we might get into this web of depression. you start feeling i’m not good enough...and somewhere i guess we all start feeling that way…
To be honest im someone who has lived with that kind of thing... rarely. dont know why?? because i never fell in love with gal next door…i always scored better than parents expected…and we didn’t have that much beautiful teachers… to had crush upon. therefore nowdays im in search of myself. this is about me. What about you people??
Think over it. Will continue later…
January 07, 2008
Welcome 2008
*Yaaaawn*
So is it that time of the year again? A time when winter is at its peak, when you eat a lot of Gajar ka Halwa, gain a few kgs. It is January the first, the first day of a new year. To tell you something, I don't really believe in the New Year spirit... No, no, I'm not completely cynic (only like 36%), it is just that I'm too much of a lazy bum to get out of the cosy covers and run around calling every other chum out there who's probably as much of a lazy bum as I am...
So well, this post is obviously late in coming... no I am not apologizing, just finger pointing at my busy schedule for that ("He did it!"). It will spill out some nonsense about me, but otherwise its just fine for idle slumps like me (and you) to read this post thinking there is something interesting out of it. I believe you won't, but since you have decided to read it (I assume you have because you have come this long) better get on with it.
Q: What had you done in 2007 that you had never done before?
A: Joined my first job of my life :)
Q: What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A: Probably will go onsite to US (only my client knows it when :))
Q: What do you wish you had done more of 2007?
A: Letting go...
Q: What song(s) will always remind you of 2007?
A: Has to be "Inn dino dil mera" and "Jaane kya chaahe mann bawra"
Q: What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory and why?
A: The 29th of jan @ 1.40 midnight :) I got selected in Cybage…
Q: What did you get really, really, really excited about?
A: Oh! It was that trippy trip ;)
Q: What was the best thing you got in 2007?
A: The book “anything for you mam” :) (Oh I know I'm obsessed of reading!)
Q: What places did you visit this year?
A: Alibaug with colleagues and Essel world (Mumbai) with friends :P
Q: What was the best book(s) you read in 2007?
A: Five point someone, some of marathi short stories and Jeffery Archer's. (Some more, too,I guess)
Q: What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
A: Cut my cake at office and went out with chums to Mc D's... I was 24.
Q: What do you think was your wrong decision in 2007?
A: Should have say “yes” to her... :(
Q: What was/were your favourite film/s this year?
A: Chak De, Jab we met and my favourite Taare Zameen Par.
Q: Who did you miss the most among relatives and friends?
A: My besty who moved to New jersy :(
Q: What did you hate most about yourself this year?
A: Being moody (rarely) and being late to office.
Q: Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
A: Telling a former virtual best friend all about my childhood.
Q: If you could go back in time to any moment of 2007 and change something, what would that be?
A: It was when in the client interview i said "ubiquitous computing" instead of "computing everywhere" that made the client ask me what the significance of ubiquitous computing was... as expected, I did not know!
Q: Did you do any act of benevolence this year?
A: This year? Not really. Well in case it meant last year, I must have fed a dog, given up a seat in PMT for senior citizens and beautiful gals heee... diminutive favours ;)
My 2008 wish list:
1) Learn some more automation tools; Dot net 3.0 and most of all Linux.
2) Have a beast of a machine for a laptop.
3) Follow more healthy routine!
4) You and I and others stay happy :)
And Yawwn!
So a very Happy New Year to you!
Fare you well :)
So is it that time of the year again? A time when winter is at its peak, when you eat a lot of Gajar ka Halwa, gain a few kgs. It is January the first, the first day of a new year. To tell you something, I don't really believe in the New Year spirit... No, no, I'm not completely cynic (only like 36%), it is just that I'm too much of a lazy bum to get out of the cosy covers and run around calling every other chum out there who's probably as much of a lazy bum as I am...
So well, this post is obviously late in coming... no I am not apologizing, just finger pointing at my busy schedule for that ("He did it!"). It will spill out some nonsense about me, but otherwise its just fine for idle slumps like me (and you) to read this post thinking there is something interesting out of it. I believe you won't, but since you have decided to read it (I assume you have because you have come this long) better get on with it.
Q: What had you done in 2007 that you had never done before?
A: Joined my first job of my life :)
Q: What would you like to have in 2008 that you lacked in 2007?
A: Probably will go onsite to US (only my client knows it when :))
Q: What do you wish you had done more of 2007?
A: Letting go...
Q: What song(s) will always remind you of 2007?
A: Has to be "Inn dino dil mera" and "Jaane kya chaahe mann bawra"
Q: What date from 2007 will remain etched upon your memory and why?
A: The 29th of jan @ 1.40 midnight :) I got selected in Cybage…
Q: What did you get really, really, really excited about?
A: Oh! It was that trippy trip ;)
Q: What was the best thing you got in 2007?
A: The book “anything for you mam” :) (Oh I know I'm obsessed of reading!)
Q: What places did you visit this year?
A: Alibaug with colleagues and Essel world (Mumbai) with friends :P
Q: What was the best book(s) you read in 2007?
A: Five point someone, some of marathi short stories and Jeffery Archer's. (Some more, too,I guess)
Q: What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
A: Cut my cake at office and went out with chums to Mc D's... I was 24.
Q: What do you think was your wrong decision in 2007?
A: Should have say “yes” to her... :(
Q: What was/were your favourite film/s this year?
A: Chak De, Jab we met and my favourite Taare Zameen Par.
Q: Who did you miss the most among relatives and friends?
A: My besty who moved to New jersy :(
Q: What did you hate most about yourself this year?
A: Being moody (rarely) and being late to office.
Q: Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
A: Telling a former virtual best friend all about my childhood.
Q: If you could go back in time to any moment of 2007 and change something, what would that be?
A: It was when in the client interview i said "ubiquitous computing" instead of "computing everywhere" that made the client ask me what the significance of ubiquitous computing was... as expected, I did not know!
Q: Did you do any act of benevolence this year?
A: This year? Not really. Well in case it meant last year, I must have fed a dog, given up a seat in PMT for senior citizens and beautiful gals heee... diminutive favours ;)
My 2008 wish list:
1) Learn some more automation tools; Dot net 3.0 and most of all Linux.
2) Have a beast of a machine for a laptop.
3) Follow more healthy routine!
4) You and I and others stay happy :)
And Yawwn!
So a very Happy New Year to you!
Fare you well :)
