Making up a reputation..

I don't know why, but these days ppl think I am a wise person who can be consulted on any problems…

during last 12 hours I got 3 requests for help..
first.. when i logged in IM in the morning in office, checking for some news etc, I got pings for some technical help from different project.. some solution was not working due to product incapability and they thought I would get something working…

Then one of my friend asked me why skype was not properly working on his machine…
And at night in the call… the client asked my help to read contents of PDF file through some code… so strange.. :D

I double checked my face in the mirror as soon as I over with the call.. Was there some external signs/some aura which made ppl think me enlightened? Because I was more than sure, nothing has changed internally.. I had quickly checked that too..
• I could not recall table of 13,
• I wished a beautiful girl would stop her car and give me a ride, and nothing happened but a BIG truck   passed by… :)
• I did not get even Rs.1 credited to my citibank account that I commanded..

So I was certainly not gifted by some Magical powers (I might not have uttered the correct spells -- but it is the remotest possibility.)

Interestingly, though ppl asked me for so much of help unfortunately but may be bcoz of the good deeds done by my ancestors, I was able to solve all the problems.. :D

Is it some phenomenon called mixing of personal life with the professional one?

I mean I am a software engineer by profession, a successful one. The customer asks so many questions/requirements/seeks help/opinions.. and sometimes I am not able to meet his needs.. but of course that's the part of being successful s/w engineer. In such situations all you have to do is ask more irrelevant questions which he cannot answers.. in Dilbert’s words --"if you cannot convince them, then confuse them", and you are all set still you can keep looking intelligent and expert.

Anyway I needed some damage control steps to change my image permanently.
• First thing I did, I replaced my image in suit on IM with the professional one.
• On the other hand, I shot a couple of emails to client without "Thanks and Regards".
• I called up my friends from desk and spoke in Marathi for long time.
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After all, I want to be Sagar Jadhav; a simple human being and not some Proud Software Engineer. :-)

A real life story...Part III

Ohh so you guys want me to end the story… You are least bothered what i feel about the situation..huh! :)
here I go…

She: I got to go..it's getting late.
(He looks into her eyes…my what moment! I would die for such a moment in my life...sounds so cute n sweet. Anyway so he looks into her eyes and says...)

He: I know you are not getting late...you are trying to run away. Don’t do that. You won’t be able to...because I have tried doing the same hell number of times...running away from you...your presence..your memories...even your smell n touch. But I failed…and now I have started understanding...how u feel.

She: Don’t you think this understanding came quite late?
(he holds her hand and says..)

He: but it's not all that late yaar! We can get back. It's just that we might have to make some extra effort…and let those efforts be such that they don’t look like efforts..:) let’s get back na…?

She: i would love to...falling in love with you was the most silly thing I did...but letting you go was worse than that. You don’t know how bad these nights have been! You'll never know..how much I love you..how much I care. You'll never know about my pain…about my broken heart. You'll never know how much I cried...just lying on my bed and thinking of you. Even the thought of you being with someone else made me shiver. But I thought you deserve someone better...someone who likes you for what you are...not like me who keeps arguing with you…who wants you to change so many things in you. But that’s just because I love you and I want you to be the best. My nagging is just a form of my love for you….. (she was about to cry…)

He: can you just stop talking..?


They both smile and look into each other's eyes...lost...lost as if there is nothing around them...! And they don’t even realize when that holding hands transformed into a tight hug...
Do I need to say anything more?...... J J

A real life story...Part II

I thought the story deserved a happy ending … you know with all those mushy-mushy lines. But then reality pinched me and I said to my friend... babes’ u r living in fantasies! Wake up..!
Here I’m sharing my thoughts which i gave to my friend. Actually I don’t like to blow my own trumpet (everytime :-D), but this is what I thought of at that time and still firm on it. Let me know if you guyz agree with me or not.

At that time, I think last year, when she (my friend) asked me what should she do..I started thinking… and you know when I think…I think as if I have never thought before... :-) At times when two people decide to go different ways... they create a void, a deep void one in each other's life. It takes hell lot of time to fill that feeling of emptiness that leaves one hollow for life.

Those late night calls… smses…long drives...hours in arms…physical intimacy…hugging after prolonged fights...close dance on symphony of life… having a glimpse at public places and shying away. You tend to miss all that attention and all those moments…and strange thought of getting back crosses your mind. One keeps saying to oneself this should work. We would try harder n stuff…but reality…reality is stranger than fiction. It pokes you… It hurts the most.

I don’t wanna say that one should never change one’s mind...not even trying to say if they chose different ways in life, they should follow that for the rest of their life. All I wanna say is think 100 times before you take that crucial decision of breakup…and if you regret your decision and wanna get back think 200 times. If you love someone it's not easy to.. let that person go…to imagine life without that person. After all he or she is that special one. But if you decide to do so...let that decision come after thorough thorough processing.

Try out all possible means to make it work and even then you fail, it’s time to move on. Don’t blind yourself with words like love...care...moments...romance! They sound intense…okay. These things are intense...but you need to have a reality check done. Love cannot keep you going all your life. Just like a friend of mine says ‘it's all about living together, not loving’. All you need to have is understanding...compatibility...compassion and a feeling of companionship. That’s it!
Said finally...decision is your's.

Will come with the real end later…

A real life story...Part I

Well I was pretty disappointed with what i wrote in post “Moving ahead”… because people close to me said I’m getting into that web again..and i don’t want to. So i thought of writing something all together different. This one is a mix of fact n fiction…story of someone close to me. I still wish she gets back her love..

Background: The scenario is two people who have been in love.. meet each other after their breakup in a cafe.

(After the usual hi and hellos..they settle down..they try not to look into each other's eye. I guess they fear they might fall in love all over again..but liars..they are still in love. Don’t know they lying to each other or to themselves? She is thinking god he still looks so handsome..what made me leave him..and he thinks she has really got into very good shape… :) The waiter props up... )

He: one black coffee for the lady...

She(in mind): oh he still remembers i like black coffee.

She: One dosa…of course for the guy...

(And they both smile..a restrictive smile..they start talking about what they have been doing off late..a very objective kind of conversation. He gets a call...)

He: Excuse me...!
(He is smiling while talking… )

She(in mind): oh my god.. he is even blushing..must be someone special..oh so he forgot me so soon..n here i m still thinking about him.

(She is caught staring at him..she just smiles and looks away..he joins later…She wants to ask who called up..very desperately..but how can she? She no more has the right to ask..n she puts a plain expression on her face. As if he is reading her mind...he says.. )

He: That was my bro's gf...
(n she takes a deep sigh.)

She(in mind): Of course he hasn’t found someone so soon..he wasn’t that kind of ever.

(She wants to explain she wasn’t being suspicious..it's just how gals are..but she chooses not to speak. While they start having what they ordered.. she realizes.. oh his ringtone...)

She(in mind): that’s my favorite song. I think he still loves me..no.. he doesn’t. that’s his favorite song as well...

He(in mind): She is wearing my favorite color black..no... that must just be a coincidence..

How time has changed..there wasn’t a day when they met and didn’t comment or complimented each other. But of course time has changed..she hands over a tissue to him..n he takes it in such an edgy way..fears he might touch her hand.. oh that’s the reason he didn’t have the usual handshake when we met. There were days when the first thing they wanted to do is hug each other..but now..time has changed..n they start talking about cricket, politics.. movies..n they both wonder it's been an hour n in spite of having different opinions they are coolly talking about everything..no arguments nothing. Have they grown up or is it they don’t bother each other with their opinions? they don’t wanna prove who’s right n who’s not..wish they were like this months before..in that case they would have still being together..but time has changed..will continue to change either…

will continue later…

Death

When I was 17, I read a quote somewhere like “If you live each day as if it is last, someday you most certainly will right”
It made an impression on me and since then I look in the mirror every morning and ask myself if today will the last day of my life what I wanna do ...what I am about to do today. And whenever the answer is been “No” for too many days in a row, I know; I need to change something. Remembering that all be dead soon, helped me make the big choices in life.
Because almost everything, all external expectations, our pride, our fear of embarrassment and failure, these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die, is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to loose. You are already naked. There is no reason, not to follow your heart.
Death is a useful but purely an intellectual concept. No one wants to die. Even people, who wanna go to heaven, don’t wanna die. And yet death is the destination we all share. No one is ever escaped it and that is as it should be. Because death is, the very likely, the single best invention of life. It clears out the old to make the way for the new. Right now the new are we.
But some day not you want from now; you will gradually become old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic but its quit true. Your time is limited. So don’t waste it living someone else’s life.
Don’t be trapped by dormant which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions ground out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
In late 60’s there was a publication – Whole Earth, created by Stuart Brand. On the back cover of their final issue, there was a photograph of an early morning country road. The words below that photograph were “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”. The farewell message they signed off was “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”.
And I always wished that for myself – “Stay Hungry, Stay Foolish”.

Moving ahead

moving ahead…mere two words and they define almost half of our life…don’t they? you fell in love with your high school friend…but she loved someone who was smarter than you... your friends say c'mon keep moving ahead. you start liking your school teacher and gosh she is married…same words come again. you start liking the gal next door…shez elder to you and already has a handsome bf…and again the same words…the friend whom you always envy scored better in board exams…shit how can that happen?? you worked harder than him. god is so unfair…then comes again keep moving ahead…but do we actually move ahead?? i don’t know. at times we do…at times we don’t. at times we don’t want to…at times we want to, but we cant… sounds funny ??

but i just feel why don’t we move ahead with some basic things on life?? why don’t we accept them?? your friend deserved someone smarter than you...that’s why she was with the guy she was. your school teacher just got too late...lolz. The gal next door just remains to be next door...and i bet your friend worked equally hard for his exams…but none of us would accept that...and if we do, we might get into this web of depression. you start feeling i’m not good enough...and somewhere i guess we all start feeling that way…

To be honest im someone who has lived with that kind of thing... rarely. dont know why?? because i never fell in love with gal next door…i always scored better than parents expected…and we didn’t have that much beautiful teachers… to had crush upon. therefore nowdays im in search of myself. this is about me. What about you people??

Think over it. Will continue later…

My Metamorphosis....

My journey from childhood to now.

Its funny how pictures sometime reveal more than the people themselves!

Five Point Someone.....!!!

Recently I intrigued while reading FPS (Five Point Someone) because it relate us with
heroes of that book.. the friends of IIT ‘s….Alok, Ryan and Hari and easily reminisced our
college days one by one…

how we were in our college??.... careless, moody, nothing to do anything about study till S.E.…..always enjoying quirks on each-other, mami’s pohe, butter chicken of balaji and last but not least FOKAS…. in short life was so much of fun for us.

That’s why, we get off to a bad start in our alma mater - KBP but who cared..?? we screw up the first year. And while we tried to make amends, things only have gotten worse. It took us a while to realize: If you try and screw with the system, it comes back to double screw you. eventually, we FLUNKED in S.E. which crestfallen us. Before we knew that, we were at the lowest echelons of engineering society. We had a five-point-something GPA out of ten (very low marks), ranking near the end of our class. These marks were a tattoo that remained with us, and came in the way of anything else that matters - our friendship, our future, may be some of us’s love lives. While the world expects engineer’s to conquer the world, we guys were struggling to survive. Nothing to say more…you know.

Now, we almost all, are taking heavy packages. Prima facie it may seem so easy to reach this level but wonder how we have rubbed our asses in T.E.& B.E. while mugging Video and other subjects. At that time, i never thought this can b happened with me …or us we can say. getting a job or starting a blog may not be a big deal for others but it means a lot to us guys……what say??

So guys, giving rest to your lackadaisical attitude, be ready to share your knowledge, sheer xperiences and most important don’t hesitate to share your problems too. We are a family. And we cant just be alive without our family..right?? Winding up with this…bye. Keep rocking.